Did i get stuck in a rut?
Did i begin to play church?
A little. My mind was not always on God. My mind was always on. Is my boss happy? What are they planning? Do they really mean what they are saying or are they lying from behind their teeth like most people do? My mind was always on one thing or the other.
Is my mind back on God?
I don't know. It is on God many times. I try to judge my motive so i know i am not on the rat race. Sometimes it is just an annoying battle. Trying to keep up with what is going on in my office, trying to keep up with what is on my dad's mind. trying to keep up with my bff (Is she for real or is she kgb? How often is she real?)
You know it is kinda a roller-coaster when so much is going on.
My younger sis started working this month and like the goody-too-shoes i am, i am helping out. I am happy for her, she is one of those people who are not happy if they are not busy doing something. She works 7 days a week under a female. Uhhhmmp!
What am i saying? She gave me the perspective:
She said, "Tisha, my friend was talking to me the other day and she said , we eat by faith, drink by faith, get a job by faith, marry by faith, have kids by faith, choose the right career by faith, walk the right path by faith, abi how do you want to do it?"
I looked at her and laughed and said, "I don't want to use common sense or logic, it has failed many people before..."
So i left her feeling very confident. It didn't last long or did it. Fact is that many things try to compete with what i believe and i can remember the chinese proverb. The one you feed wins the battle. If you are not feeding your spirit with God's word, don't thing the devil will stop feeding your flesh, he has many people who help him and they are willing. So you better be willing to feed your spirit.
The just shall live by faith...
I know many people won't do this or they forget (like me sometimes). Holy Spirit, i am asking you to help me live by faith, help me remember to live by faith. I am i am strong on my inside because i am strengthened with might in my inner man and i know that God is for me big time. Father, help me depend on you.
I love you Jesus.
I love you all, blogfam, you know yourselves.