Friday, August 24, 2012


I wish i had some negative emotion to share
just to watch my blogger page come alive and people scrambling
to advice me, but unfortunately, the negative emotions are gone.

The hurt, the anger, the pride, the fear, they are all gone
In its place is courage and faith.
In their place is the prophecies he sent me long before time.

"Young Lady, have faith in God"

I will have faith, because the Most High God
the creator of the heavens and the earth cared about me
enough to send me word.

My garden, my heart is fine
the sand, the stone, the rocks are gone
My heart is soft to the word of God and the Spirit of God again

I just know that God knows and understands
more than that, He knows what He is doing
I am so sure of the things that He has told me

I have learnt to move beyond the physical mediators on earth
God did not appoint anyone anyways, even Jesus carried our confessions
Jesus does not say to ask Him for anything, He says we should ask the
Father in His name, that wonderful name

Just basking in the love of God

My babushka, my praying grandmother has gone to be with God
I promised myself i wouldn't have any regrets but i already have one
I regret not spending enough time with her and not being caring enough
I never knew she was dying, i had no idea and that hurt me so much

My solace is that she is with God and that i will see her when i go to meet Jesus
some sixty something years from now
She lived till 95 but i thought she would be like her mom
who lived till 120. It was not to be, my grandma had only one child
but she affected so many and they said, we must all wait for them to gather
from around the world to come and honour her.

You know: everyday i make my own plans, but God has His way with me
I have learned that in my life, God is the welcome interrupter
so no matter how many plans i make, i know He'll butt in to direct me
on to the right path.

that's it

Good news: i am writing like a locomotive
coined from my childhood phrase: "smoking like a locomotive"


Thursday, August 16, 2012


I am just content

Yes, they are still talking
Yes, they still show their hatred
but it is not for the reasons they campaigned about
It is just pure ambition
Ugly religion
They admit their faults but carry as usual.

Not intimidated
Not anymore
I have lost all the illusions i had about them
Was worried about my faith
But it is that much stronger for the storm it
has walked through

I have come through smelling good
wiser, smarter,
was cynical
but guess what?

My enthusiasm is back and now anytime
they come at me
I just rise higher

Knowing that God has His hand on me does give me
more confidence

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Totally nuts...

All i know for sure is that they are 'nuts'
Today was a lil' day in their meddlings for them

Then in the middle of their story
She warns him to be careful that she is the new mrs B
I don't understand, was he married before?

yeah, i said it
They are absolutely sick
She gave the game away
Of course, instead of him to preach and let God
do the speaking
He planned a little speech about some information
he wants to get across and uses the devotion
as his little tool for transferring info to me

I wish he would just have the guts to speak to me directly
She is a pawn, who cares about her
I hope she enjoys her struggles, i can honestly
say i am glad i am not in your position
Not that i expect that to make her secure
her biggest problem has always been insecurity

What is that saying about money and marriage?
It magnifies what was already there before
Good luck getting on with your life...
Just don't make it about me, i am done with your games
and all the rubbish you want to spend the rest of your life doing
leave me out of your mess, you got in yourself
deal with it.

Meanwhile, i am walking by faith with a vengeance
no apologies to anyone
I don't play politics, will never play it
For me, it silences the Holy Ghost
And without Him, i can't see tomorrow

My pastors (the both of them) told me to keep silent
After this rant, no more talking and showing off
I didn't do anything special to make the Holy Spirit
take an interest in me, other than depending on Him

Nuff said!