Lord, what do i do with all this dirt?

Why are people always throwing dirt at me. Well, a seed can't grow if it's not covered in dirt. Much dirt much harvest. 

I have been complaining lately about this. People hear news, forgive me, i mean gossip about me and forget what the gospel says, why is that?
You cannot impact someone you hate or resent neither can you see any good about them, all that you will see is gloom and doom. What does the gospel of Jesus Christ have to do with gloom and doom?


These judges, self appointed and pharisees, they tick me off, how did i ever cope before now? Why do they feel the need to compete with me or gossip about me with the intention to run me down and think they do God a favour? Did God ask them for a favour? 
I don't need their help because they have no answers and all they do is yack, yack yack at me and at the end of the day, nothing has changed but they have exercised their mouths again. They want to offer pity, i don't need it, are you deaf? I don't want your pity!


I am not supposed to defend myself rights abi. So i am supposed to ignore them, and when i do they get pissed, they expect me to confide in them so this time they should have confirmed yacking, o sorry no, righteous yacking, approved by the lord. I don't understand why they can't see it. Or why they won't. They want to help, uh nope, they care how things look on the outside without taking heed to their inside, its all about what everyone think, tis matters even more than what God thinks. Let me try to understand why: you know we can't see God but we can see ourselves so let's focus on making everything look good even if it aint, let's pretend!
No i don't think so, i will not be pretending along with you, do your thang, just don't drag me along with you on the pretend game.


I think it'd be easy for them to realize that not everyone likes to be fake, some people would like genuine faith and genuine smiles. Like me for example, i don't want to be transparent and smile genuinely at you and then hear all the nasty things you say behind me, it doesn't make for comfortable conversation and trust. If you have talked about me behind my back, never expect me to be vulnerable with you because all i am giving you is content for news to be discussed on Sunday, wednesdays and maybe other times we need to discuss God's dirty linen and how we get rid of it (religious mind at work again) and of course opposition and persecution to get the people in line with what God says, what happened to grace? 
Of course some persecution are Jesus approved, Jesus loves gossip and backbiting... (I just want to see somewhere in the gospel of Jesus Christ where this is approved)
Why would you want to know something you have no solution for, or something you think the blood of Jesus is defenseless against? Get real, focus on the things you can deal with, things you can't deal with, let it be!
Stop the picking and the prodding, stop attacking my dreams, face yours!


Pissed!