"Those you don't pray don't see into the realm of the spirit, they only see what others see".
Am I praying? No I am done with the praying. I am in thanksgiving mode. Am I supplicating? Not really I am affirming the word of the Lord.
It has been a long time since I acknowledged that there was a realm of the spirit.
Has my mindset changed? I guess! I am renewing my mind, sha! I am tired of the microwave Christianity. How do you see into the realm of the spirit if you don't pray? Is it magic?
A thousand times, no.
The things I had forgotten on the road to pleasing man. I have been like humpty-dumpty for the last three years and still no one was pleased least of all, me. God may have been pleased some of the time. I am just so glad that He never left me. Who said ministry was easy?
I am worried and scared about the road I am on. I don't know if I can do it because no one has changed. I hate nothing more than human conflict and there is going to be a lot of it. Hardly anyone has the fruits of the spirit and unlike the gifts of the Holy Spirit, you need to obey the Holy Spirit to get the fruits of the spirit. His gifts are without repentance. His gifts are developed when you obey. Obedience is not easy but the rewards of obedience cannot be bought with money.
It is well with my soul.
Just obeying the saying, say to the righteous, It is well.
Mine adversaries are many and they do not even pretend to oppose me, they are 'oha' about it. They have searched and searched for ways to disqualify me, at a point I stopped caring. It was after the weary time. The weary time was so horrible because I wasn't physically tired, I was weary in my soul and emotionally. I was emotionally drained and I had nothing to give; I didn't even know at which point the peace filled my soul. I just know that God sent me the midwives.
Thank you, Jesus. I couldn't have made it if you didn't send the midwives. I see the journey ahead and Lord, I just trust you to lead me in the right path.
I function in God's wisdom and the ability to fulfil all that You ask is in me in Jesus name, amen.
It feels good to be sincere!