Friday, January 29, 2010

H e hates my guts...

He (i had no romantic entanglements with him whatsoever, he's really older than me) resents me but will never admit it. he feels like i don't deserve God's goodness. all this just helps me appreciate what God did when he sent Christ.

Can you remember a time when you did not ask for goodies and your mom/dad bought them, that feels like undeserved love se. well that's how salvation feels, you know what God's love takes so much better.
so no matter how many judges, scoffers and mockers mask themselves as believers (what exactly do they believe?) and mask their true feelings, i will wear my righteousness with pride and stand up to be counted as a light in Zion.

When i focus on them and their crazy notions and hypocritical judgmental attitude, i just want to give in and throw in the towel and run away but when have i ever taken the easy way out?

I am turning around and fighting them back (i am tired of being bullied) not the way they are used to fighting; by ganging up and creating division, pretending kindness and praying evil in the same breathe. acting nice and the next moment sending nasty comments, gossiping endlessly and preaching about how only you will... forget about it!

i on the other hand choose to do the word and trust my instincts (the holy ghost's voice for believers) that everything he says is true, i am going to feed them patience, kindness and understanding as much as it hurts.
(It feels like the first time i will be living by faith; the 5 months without opposition made me soft; i let down my guard and now everyone is holding bazookas and waiting, no praying for me to fail cos more is at stake).

since he is doing all the stuffs intentionally, this is my solution: no one can successfully put me down or tear me down because i know who i am and the greater One lives in me; the Holy ghost, he is my counselor, standby, and teacher so i am surrounded with favor and therefore i can't go wrong!



  1. i hope you get over this..whatever it may be.

  2. yes i hope you do....and in the name of Jesus, we curse all the curses on your behalf, every Giant that is blocking ur destiny be cursed in Jesus Name...Amen

  3. Just go forward confident in the undeserved love of God in Christ. And bless him, don't curse him, whoever he may be,

  4. I pray for you to pass through this trail period. Just remember to hang onto God. It is well.

  5. Blessings...
    Just be who you are and live your life to the fullest, do not waste time on those who are busy spreading hate.

    Have a blessed weekend.

  6. Say a blessing for those who see no good in you...a time will come when they shall see otherwise.
    How are you?

  7. Bless those who curse you.
    There's no better 'revenge' than that!

    Do take care.

  8. Best believe that the darker it gets in the world the brighter it’s going to be for God's people. Things may be bad all around you, people may be negative, complaining, and discouraged but don't let that spirit rub off on you. The worse it gets, the brighter you're going to shine. Be determined to set the tone for the new decade by praising God and speaking words of faith over your future.

  9. @leggy
    i am over it at least i have come to terms with it.

    sis mi
    i lombano all God has prepared for me

    thanks, will keep moving

    i pray my faith holds me.


    i am gonna have to shift focus
    @fragile looks
    i will get through

    i guess i am now, more importantly how are you?

    i will bless em o i have the ability, i will even pray for em'

    "The worse it gets, the brighter you're going to shine"
    this is why i like blogger, this just makes my spirit alive, more if that's possible.

  10. Hey....u commented on my blog thinking it was fashingas blog lol ..on the post 'He must have sat in'.

    Just thought I'd let u know..
    tk cre

  11. Keep your head up. In no time, they'll be of the past..

  12. Hey how's it going...hope things are alright with you.


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