If i call you my friend...

...then you are really one and cherished and valuable to me, I'd never call you my friend if you weren't. You are allowed to not be perfect but if you are crooked and cunning, we won't be friends. i wrote a nice post on issues i had been having and what it meant to be a friend; been having issues and after reading neefemi's blog post and leggy's blog post, i decided I'd just about write it again, even though i may still put that one up.

Being a follower of Christ and someone who likes to pride myself in doing the word, i had to resolve what malice was and what 'putting someone between a rock and a hard place was'.
I have been in this position before, the one where every one crucifies you on the testimony (you could also cal it gossip) of another. I have always come out on top and i am sure this time would be no different, it's just the time i have to wait.
This time though, i was less bothered about the folks involved and more bothered about if God was pleased with me.

There's this chic in my office (i have been in my office for about three years)who's never wanted to be my friend or anything and suddenly, she is my newest best friend (...trust me, i know how to resist those things nah, i wasn't a correct lag chic for nothing). I was suspicious (as usual, lol) and i wondered what she wanted.

Anytime she spoke to me, i wondered (chic, what's with the over friendliness, i hope you know we can't be friends; especially not after the condemnation sessions). she does not know how long suffering i can be. i shunned her anyway (without being too nasty sha)n of course fell into her trap, she went about telling folks (her strength) what i did and i know she's silently seething (i could not care less).

anyhow sha, i will wait it out. How do i justify not being friends with her? i have searched the bible thoroughly and it says somewhere that Jesus did not pretend that the pharisees were his friends, he called them 'brood of vipers', he never acted, he never pretended, he called them what they were.

So this is my statement, when you know someone does not like you (nothing wrong with saying hi) don't just think they are your friends (That is o so stupid, i think lol) and i may be naive (not street smart at all, it makes me weep sometimes) but i am not stupid and i will not pretend so if she wants to imagine i am keeping malice with her, she is welcome to imagine whatever she wants but God is not mocked and he rules in the affairs of men.

I want to guard my heart cos that is where i produce life from but i wonder why these pharisees and Sadducees won't leave me alone, believe whatever you want, i don't care any longer, all i care about is making sure my relationship with God is salvaged, i receive revelation knowledge on how to deal with this (big headache).

Would you want to be friends with someone who secretly wishes you dead and who talks bad about you behind your back but smiles in your front and always wants to buy you something or the other? Now be honest!

To be frank, i would not be friends with you if i knew you gossiped or were not loyal or were scum enough to do something underhanded to get your way and then want to be friends after getting your way? How stupid do you think i am? don't answer!

I just can't pretend like that, if that was the friendship between David and Jonathan, the bible would have said. I always want true friendship and i am grateful for the friends God has given me who can be real with me and truly be my friends, if you are not my friend, it all good too, just don't try to cosy up to me...

I think i have finished the rant if that's what it was.