Tuesday, November 16, 2010

so fast...

I am writing so soon again abi
It baffles me too

Today everyone is born again o
It's amazing
I am fighting not to be a doubter
and a scorner
But i have walked this walk
long enough to know that it
is more than what you say

It is what you do day in, day out
whether it suits you or not
and it certainly soothes them right about now

Abi i should care how long the rule-keeping
will last se.
I really don't care
I have removed hand
I am not the Holy Spirit
I should be concerned about my relationship
With Christ and how it is doing

What other folks are doing is their own business
I just need to guide my heart

By the way:
They are always murmuring
and mumuring more than anything
drives good folks away
what you will have left is the suck ups or the dry husks
of folks who begin to conform

God intervenes sha
FG is coming up soon
Excited inside
I don't want to let it out cos i might jinx it.

I feel like i am a kid in kindergarten cos those are the kind of games we play. Not down with the drama, never agreed to play/act. Now i am with the directing crew no acting for me except what God has predestined. I refuse the acting o and i am glad i have sorted it with God that there is no malice. Evil thrives in an environment of malice and anger and jealousy and certain kinds of people too. At least they appear to.

Spoke with a friend yesterday and said friend said that murmuring was too much, it just let me know that they have not given up on murmuring about me and i am now too busy  to care. Tis their way of life.
I promised God that i am not partaking of the drama, coming out by the power of the spirit of God, i know what is important to me, have always known but could not control the circumstances.

How do i do it now? I no longer care what any one thinks or reads into anything i do. In fact i want them all to think their worst and then be satisfied that there is no way forward again.

Some idiot just poked his head in here, tis why i don't trust them, they be always pocknosing. very soon it will be anointed behavior to pock nose and gossip. By the way Lord, i need your anointing today again, fill my cup Lord, you are the strength of my life.

(I will never be able to get used to hurting people for fun. For this i am glad, it means i have not conformed)

Goal for the week
Refuse to live a lack luster life. i dread the day i have to pretend for a living. I know it will never come. Even though i am calm on the outward, my personality is too explosive to pretend on any level. Tis why i choose friends carefully. Don't be angry if i don't open up to you, its just that i don't trust you and situations have shown your lack of trustworthiness so if all i got was that you were not trust worthy at the end of it all, i think it's worth it

Live the best life cos you are only living it once. Strange question: What is your idea of divine energy cos i think i have an idea. God is amazing!
I love Him

My scripture for the week:
No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD


  1. Oh yes..."It is what you do day in, day out
    whether it suits you or not..."

    I really like your post on trusting Him and the action you are taking. Remain blessed.

  2. @ Rita
    That's right.

    Thanks. I had to decide what i believed in and if i believed beyond convenience.

  3. Love your poem and the touch of simplicity you added to it..
    Love the randomness

  4. Nice blog. Got my attention! I dey follow...

  5. @2cute4u
    It's not a poem o, its just a series of lines on how i got back to trusting my Lord Jesus. No one knows more than i do how i need God.

    @ Naija American gal
    Yeah, thanks. will do same.

  6. true talk!!


  7. haven't been here in a while
    now i'm not sure why
    thanks for this

  8. Really love your style of writing... will be back for more...

    Pls follow my blog

    www.sesheajames.com for the latest Celebrity photos, celebrity videos, news, headlines, articles, gossips, stories, buzzing stories, breaking news, movies, movie trailers, movie photos, movie reviews and More. I say it like it is!

  9. "comment should not be empty"...thats funny. Im loving the music that starts on your page.


  10. @Abi NY
    certainly true for me.

    So you have been avoiding my page. good to see you are back anyways.

    i write my heart. most times anyway.

    I love the music too. even though the music hates slow connections. lol

  11. I like what's goin on here...lovely blog and its gud to see I made ur blog roll :-D
    U and Jaycee seem to have a connection...dunno if uve seen Jaycee's blog

  12. @ Tolu
    I do know jaycee, that's the only connection
    I have been reading her blog since kingdom come. She's amazing! So new everyday.


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