The peace i have.
It might not look nice, what i will be blogging, all i tried to do was observe all the principles i know, the spiritual ones anyways. I don't care.
Today i was ruthlessly manipulated in the name of Jesus. And i did not find it funny. I got hurt and insulted based on a man's personal opinions.
What gives folks the right to force their opinions on others. B.S (Bullsh*t), imagine trying it on me. Emotionally i was hurt, distraught even, because i still care what people think of me. Brain to tisha, deal with that!
Objectively, i was aware that i was been forced into a position where i would be operating as a puppet with no personal opinions. Who the heck is in charge of my life? Me, them, Him? He is in charge of my life. I am not going to mess it up pleasing anyone.
I don't want to regret it ten years from now all in a bid to please someone who is temporary in my life. I am not even going to do it for permanent folks. God and i will make that decision together. They don't understand, my limited wisdom has failed me before. Why should i trust his advice, would he lay down his life for me? If he would, then i can take his advice but if not, i would stick to God's wisdom. I pray he focuses on the good and not the evil.
I am sure there are good testimonies but all he can remember are the evil ones. A pastor friend of mine asked me to always focus on the good testimonies because there is something about what your mind is always meditating on daily. Are you focusing on the power of God or the power you believe the devil has. I can never forget that the devil is broke of power, no matter how many circumstances i see. lol! I actually feel better.
I won't do it on the limited wisdom of a man.
I am still pissed and angry on the behalf of the women whose stories i was made privy to, and the disrespect they endured all in a bid to provide me with negative stories.
And of course move me in a particular direction.
I'm royally pissed.