I still live

*I thing the blogfam have given up on me, no comments on three posts


Unrepentant:
Showing no regret for one's wrongdoings
The lady from yesterday, yeah, i am sure you guessed that she is unrepentant, people are saying i should have pushed her back. Instead she told me she wasn't my mate; yes, she isn't, she's my colleague whether she likes it or not and she has no right to be rude to me, and i will teach her so.


I am writing the imagery of what is going on
my chest is constricted, i can't breathe
I feel like a vise is tightening my neck,constricting me, my essence
As i walk, i see all eyes  no many eyes full of hatred
open hatred, deep hatred
I go somewhere to a room and i am pushed, twice!
disdained openly, disrespected and embarassed
The environment is so threatening
 I wonder how i got here and why
everything is so tough seems so tough
The words on the inside of the walls
speak of hope, restoration, but barely outside the walls
all i hear is mocking laughter, the struggle for survival
the harsh terrain of the world system, shocking contradictions
I feel calm on the inside
everyday the waves of hostility
try their darndest to shatter my fortress of calm
and i am tempted to break my fortress
and walk in the flesh and in what i see with my human eyes
judgment, their own personal opinions of how everything MUST go


But i refuse to be bogged down
I refuse to come down to the fleshly, earthly, sensual, carnal, slave to my senses level
I am a slave to righteousness, dead!
I am dead to the emotions, whims and caprices of man, even mine
My face is set in one direction only
I am unmoved by the very loud voices of unspoken words
God is working, i am convinced He's bringing me GOOD
Even when mouths are forced to remain closed
the eyes still speak but i look beyond them to the countenance of my God, He is the creator
skilled in creating GOOD circumstances as i keep SPEAKING what He has said


As He is, so am i in this world and so in spite of what i see, i speak forth into the spiritual realm,
a new beginning for me and my family, we are expectant not just of new lives; we are expectant
that towards us as we believe, God is bringing us GOODNESS beyond our imagination


Even as i am aware that my name is in the mouth of many and thus in their homes
been smeared and another attempt to take me down, i smile into the eyes of the enemy
(Yes i am not unaware of the devices of the enemy)
I smile and say into the eyes of the enemy "In case you forgot, i told you i am a winner, more
than a conqueror, an overcomer in this life" 
Lol, a loud conquering laughter, Yes i can
You're gonna have to do more than that to take me down
and even then you won't succeed. I am marching forward, I can't be defeated
have you forgotten that He lives in me?
I haven't! The One who raised Jesus from the dead, He lives in me
Do you think He's just lying fallow, He's working in me, He's working in my family
He's doing the unimaginable, the incredible, He's energizing me and my family daily
He's doing wonders in me and in my family and i will yet see the marvels of God all the days of my life
I and my family will live a long and satisfying life (God's mind, man just learns from experience)
So i'm ditching my own mind and using the mind of Christ.


Later!


NB It's awesome to be a Christian, I am grateful to be connected to Christ. My imagination cannot be reined in, it runs, flies and soars free. I love this, it's not motivation, no not at all! It's divine inspiration, it's because He lives in me. He's not fallow or barren; He's alive and working in me.


State of mind: I wanna dance, let go, run free!