having a readily stressful week...

have you ever fought attraction b4? it takes all the emotional energy you have and then some. i did not like him like that at first and now i am not sure how i feel. i have a nagging feeling that i am going to get hurt on this one cos i usually don't have my emotions involved. i am scared i don't usually admit i am scared, i have used every tactics i know to discourage me something tells me i am not making enough effort to cos maybe i like him liked him as a friend, never planned to take it further i mean where is the future in starting something that you might not finish i have been hurting for a week and hiding it i'll give it to me i have a strong will but on this one i think i need God I do! (please don't ask me to explain cos i can't, i am sorting myself out and i just can't explain anything) i will be back to blog cos i need to offload somewhere so i don't go crazy or have a nervous breakdown or something.