how do i feel...

i am a little hurt and a little numb the only thing that gives me confidence is that i am sure that God has said it is not him if not i would probably be crying myself to sleep i just know that he is not equipped to cope with ma issues even though he thinks he is i meanwhile have been equipped to be strong after all i am a strong black woman (tear!) sometimes i don't want to be strong i just want to let go and weep but... These are the cards i have been given i must play with the best of me this is who i am in reality! Hate that word. have to go cos i think and know that i can change things.