Wednesday, December 24, 2008
i hate my office right now.
i think my boss is an over-achiever. i got a below average cos i could not get any adverts, all the interviews and my briefs and everything i did throughout the year was discounted like i was a common advertsing executive and not an media assistant and writer cum. what did annoy me was the fact that i felt i worked more than many of my colleagues that had a better appraisal. now what did that do to me? it demotivated me and reduced my love for my work. i am sad and dissappointed in what happened. i am an over-achiever but i like to ba appreciated and if not appreciated then be indifferent to me, what i absolutely cant tolerate is being put down especially when i am doing the best i can and busting my ass to produce results when no one has ever produced the results i did. if i do raise money and ened up doing my work excellently it will be becasue i want to prove that i can and not because of any threats however silent they may be. just got a laptop and so i will be having less stress and will do doing more writing. Thank God. i am about to become a much better writer. have not seen naija denzel in a while and love interest wahala is the last thing on my mind with job stress, i think i am just going to focus on my work for a while and just be friends. i love him, i love him not. i am sure that i like him though but like invisible said i have built walls that i myself cannot get over. so i guess thats it, i mean how do i go about breaking the ice without it seeming like i am giving him a green light to go on and ask me out. well, i think he is all those mature guys that will go like i know what i want and not want to spend time as friends... what am i saying? it sounds like crap, i guess i dont know what i want? end of post, i am going to let go and have lots of fun during christmas.