The 5- post thats going around like a bug...

My favorite song for last month was "if i were a boy", my favorite song for this month is "How can i keep from sing" 5 things that I would like to do: 1. Go somewhere fun like the Bahamas.. 2. Write with no pressures, i mean something more than bloggin, blogging is fun, i mean a project, a book or something. 3. be less distracted and more committed to God. 4. Write a romantic book, i am not funny, i am rather sweet 5. Spend time with my family (ma famille) 5 things that I look forward to: 1. A well-cooked meal as opposed to the fish smell poisoned food i get these days (i am sure my mum is mad at me cos everyone knows i can't stand the smell of unfried fish in food) 2. Romantic and High school movies (watched Twilight, crazy movie where a gal was in-love with a vampire who saved her life; i fell in love with the actor and not the vampire, i absolutely hate evil, can't forget that) 3. When i will be able to kiss unrestricted (something tells me it won't be much of a big deal anylonger; it will be stupid to say yes to Dee just because i want to kiss... don't even know if i want to kiss him...)(okay right now i am off kissing strange enough i absolutely detest kissing and i would not like to be owned, i want a partnership, have no problem with submission though! lol, yes i know its crazy and maybe its fear but this came upon me friday morning) 4. Visit Abuja and Calabar 5. Growing up (I know i am grown up but every day i still feel like a teenager if not that i now work for a living, i would have thot that i was still 19 in my parent's house) 5 things that I’d grab if my apartment caught fire: 1. make sure everyone's safe 2. My laptop (yeah, its an investment) 3. My creamy sandals (i just got them and they are creme de la creme) 4. My (i am thinking really hard...) sister cashmere sweater 5. My (i have jammed rock) my brothers radio (really cute one). The things that i value are more human than material possessions, maybe i'll change soon but i don't really think so! 5 random things about me: 1. I hate cooking food with raw or boiled fish, i'll throw up everything like 5 minutes later (which is currently why i am not eating at home and its telling on me) 2. Music soothes my soul, i can absolve almost anything no matter how terrible or ghastly and pour it out to God in worship (i guess that is what he meant when He said cast your cares upon me for i care for you...) 3. I love jeans and cotton tops and flat shoes even though i am terribly sexy on heels. (can't handle the attention which is why i am usually dressed girl next door even though occasionally i dress "sexy diva") 4. I prayed to God for my boobs to stop growing at size 34, i did not care what my beau would think, all that mattered was me, i hate boob-bouncing and with the kind of bras i wear, i don't bounce even when i jump...lol (the mind of a thirteen year old) 5. God and my family are the most important thing to moi! There is enough of me left for my beau sha! lol 5 things that I’m wearing right now: 1. Grey Calvin Klein T-shirt 2. Dolce and Gabbanna jeans 3. Human hair honey and brown 4. Cream atmosphere sandals 5. Black and white strapped bra and a black thong I thought it would be more, i enjoyed this... Peace

i made me be honest and ...

interesting too...
 i wasn't going to blog about this on my open blog but i decided to... cos i have the guts to live my best life everyday so read gutsy abi, lol I Believe...

Just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
 (me and who for God's sake, i never argue, i think that is totally fake but how do you learn something you have not learned up till now) 

 And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.
(i don't want to make any comparisons, my sister believes that you have the worst arguements with the ones you love; a sign of passion (hmmm! my sis is barely a teenager o) you don't fight at all and she believes that there is manipulation going on somehow, i believe her, i don't know why) I Believe...

We don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change. 
 (tisha and d-gal; never knew her, selfish 'binch') I Believe..

No matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
  (boomboom n tisha) I Believe...

True friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.. The same goes for true love.
 (liza2k n tisha) I Believe..

You can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
(trust the wrong person, but you don't have to hurt forever, you can let go and let GOD) I Believe...

That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
(not on God's timetable, sha, His time is best if you have hind sight, yeah if u can see the end from the beginning...) I Believe...

You should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
(like i could ever do that, i touch the people i am close to, forever making contact with them, hugs, touch, whatever meen 'blush', i don't know if i blush again, i think i am too jaded but then again...) I Believe...

You can keep going long after you think you can't.
  (His grace is sufficient, and He is always there, aside from him i think i would have fallen apart in 2000... but then He always has a plan Hmmmph! now just for me to shift and align with His plans) I Believe...,

 We are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
(we can decide what we need to do and live with it joyfully) I Believe...

Either you control your attitude or it controls you.
(this is the hardest i have had to fight to maintain a good attitude, the month of july and God is proud of me, i am proud of me too 'smile' though not at all times, i nearly lost it many times because i can be mouthy!) I Believe...

Money is a lousy way of keeping score.
(i am a dangerous billionaire, for real! i mean really cleanly rich (as opposed to filthy rich, lol)) I Believe...

My best friend and I, can do anything, or nothing and have the best time.
(The Holy ghost, i am not that close to any human being right now, Now if i can just discipline myself to spend time with Him consistently... 'make me' Lord i pray as in not force me o! just give me the right desires!) I Believe...

Sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up. (yep, i have had ravens feed me severally and people i expect to support me stab in the back so it just underlines the fact that the heart of man is desperately wicked; it just matter who is controlling the Man's/Woman's heart, and women did me more harm than men... so its not like i am biased against men ...or women for that matter, i just let them be (sigh!)) I Believe... 


Maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
(oops, i think i am mature sha, no one will convince otherwise, i am teachable sha in many things) I Believe..

It isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others. sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.
(forgave myself before i dated my ex, dante laughed at this) I Believe....

No matter how badly your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
(you can always pick yourself up and make yourself happy and i have never really being heart-broken anyway, my FB profile calls it "careful heart" (i am 007, the female version, the one that gets away time and again)) I Believe...

Our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but. we are responsible for who we become.
(The world will know that someone came and made her mark in the sands of time which is some 60-70 years away) I Believe...

Two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.
(don't try me, i can paint nine different pictures from one scenario) I Believe...

Your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
(some good and some bad, i want to be the good influence in other peoples lives, overcome evil and be the good, no matter how difficult it seems) I Believe...

Even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.
(That's me, the one who the devil can't get, always willing to give a helping hand, my alter ego has been trying to make me a little harder and a little nasty so people cannot take advantage of me but i just don't give up, i went for a job interview and said i was resilient in my soft voice, they don't , know the half of it) I Believe...

Credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
(I will live life with passion and make my world know that i am around and called to serve and unstoppable.) 

 I Believe... in you

(Yes thats me, i give people the hope that they can live again and have hope, Christ in me the hope of glory, you can be anything you want to be, the power is in your hands and on your tongue, never be satisfied with the ordinary) 

 Where is invisible? Tisha is back big time!

i just found out something heartbreaking!

i logged on FB and discovered that a friend (we were not that close) is gay. Its upsetting because she changed her r/ship status on FB that she is in a r/ship with a person who later turns to be a female. We were not close but we shared the same faith, and i believed that she believed God as much as I. Its sad because i don't think it is normal for a girl to want another gals body, you need to see the passion in her eyes. I immediately felt compassion for her and at the same time sad that someone got her to deny her faith somewhat. So i am wondering, if a girl makes a pass at me, will i fall in love so much so that i would deny a God who is not pleased with homosexualism or lesbianism. I am not trying to discriminate cos in the bible, Paul said that "we used to be idolaters, adulterers, fornicators, murderers etc". I am not your everyday judgmental Christian, i will tell you straight that God had a reason for destroying Sodom and gomorrah and He has not changed His mind about homosexuality, adultery, fornication etc. My prayer is that the fire of God comes alive in Her heart and God takes away her peace so she knows that though she is righteous, her actions do not please God. Someone made a pass at my sis and at my friend's wedding, the singer made a pass at me, but i did not know it was this bad. I thought it was only unbels (people who have not known Christ) that can be led away. I pray she longs for God so much she is uncomfortable in that unnatural r/ship with a female because i believe she has the nature of God so no one can steal her away from God. Otherwise i am coasting along and growing in my r/ship with God. Peace you I am an unapologetic Christian. I am proud to be an ambassador of Christ I am meant though to show people the love of God So to those who are straight, Jesus loves you To those who are fornicating (if you are sleeping with someone you are not married to) God still loves you To those who are gay, God loves you still To those who lie, steal, cheat, God loves you still To those who have not yet known Christ, God loves you To those who have known Christ but are discouraged, God still loves you and nothing can separate you from His love. To those who have known Christ and have courage, ride on, you make your Father proud. I still love her even though she's gay and i pray God will lead her home, she must be so hurt to want another girl. I pray the Holy Ghost sorts her out. She is not gay (except you mean happy, i mean outrageously happy, full of unspeakable joy) I worry about the most insane things well, i made a pact with God today that come september he will bring me the man of my dreams or i will say yes to Dee, i was a little sad today bcos Dee called again and asked if i was ready and i told him that i could not give him an answer today, I pray he has the patience to wait sha... I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (i would think i was neurotic myself if not that i am so sure its God leading me, i don't know how many times He has to prove Himself to me. I have several proofs and i am not asking for any more proof just that he keep guiding and leading me)

I am glad!

I hear Him again I see things more clearly The chic that used to look me up and down invaded my private space and i am not even amazed i am not surprised I am in God's will He stopped speaking to me and i knew He was not mad at me so i was okay I guess i got too comfortable and soon i did not worship any longer instead i was about everyone's business but mine God had to shift me back into position Today i was persecuted but my spirit witnesses to me that i am in a good place exactly where God wants me to be. Adversity is opportunity to grow and Boy am i growing I am even blowing my own mind and that is a mean feat Relationship-wise i am not going to do anything I have made up my mind about certain things I am blessed and i hear only the word of God above the word of a man, any man I reject logic as logically as i am so you know this is serious business God is loving me has loved me still loves me and this is good enough. FOR NOW (big grin) (No man can compete with my love for God or God's love for me). Lesson for the month: Teach the word and live the word. One bothersome question i have is that: Is God proud of me? because i really want him to be. What He thinks about me matters a lot. Am i living to please God? this is important to me, i have been thinking about it over and over again. Hooking up with other blogs in the meantime, will post something that is not my thoughts soon. I am fulfilled.