i give me my approval

Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear.
-Mark Twain

A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval.
-Mark Twain

Something happened yesterday that shifted my equilibrium, it put everything out of focus for me. It was like i went down memory lane again and it was judgmental attitudes at work again, i thought i had gotten over them but it reared its ugly head again and i cried inside.

I came to terms with it in the early hours of today and i found a solution that would work. I prayed in tongues in the early hours of the morning. I have questions i need answers to and i know i will find em' soon.

I decided to just be like Jesus instead of trying to be like the rest of the world. (Since the 19th, i confirmed something and i need answers from God). My faith is the most important thing to me and honestly i think i need to grow to another level again.

Having fresh challenges i don't understand but the snatches of conversation i had been hearing are been pieced together and now make sense.

Why is it that folks remember the word of God so clearly after they believe they have gotten their way. Another round of manipulation going on again and i am not buying it. I doubt i can believe any word they ever say or have ever said. They probably lie as if they make a living from lying.

Too bad i can't concentrate on them and their lying mouth and their talents at spreading rumors. What is it the word says about creating divisions and covetousness, i just want to maintain my cool and walk in love continuously.

I wonder why i am having challenges regular people don't have...

need to untangle what it means
hate thinking and getting nowhere
but the wheels in my brain don't
stop moving




One thousand friends are not enough, one bad friend is too much
– Late Arch Bishop Benson Idahosa. (Father of Nigeria Pentecostal Movement