Thursday, June 16, 2011

Hi folks, feels like the old tisha, almost!

I knew i was going to post something sooner
How are you all doing?
Miss my blogfam

been pondering some stuff
wondering about my dreams
wondering if i have not been thinking too small
compared to the plans God had in store for me

Gisting with my sis this morning 
and she told me about this woman 
who was raped and killed by her driver and her cook
and called herself a Christian

I was slipping off into my nonchalant mood
when i suddenly got mad
Two folks planned such rubbish about you
and you are in the dark about it and you call yourself 

It annoyed me plenty, why don't you just tag 
yourself a bench warmer
Then i recalled what it meant to be Christian
It means to be conscious of the spiritual more than the physical
It means to dominate your environment so much
you can decide what happens on it and what doesn't

I know many folks won't understand this
But Kathryn Kulman in the 1940's used to dominate territories
She used to decide that such and such, stealing, anger, fear and sickness
could not operate around her in a 10 ft radius, two blocks, ten blocks and
then a 5o mile radius, that is what it means to take charge.

How can people with such criminal minds be planning such against you and
you don't know?
Don't tell me you are not a witch or a mind reader
That is why he gives visions, word of knowledge, wisdom, discernment of spirits etc
It is so you can dominate your world and operate as more than a man
How can this woman possibly say she did not sense anything
and then say she has an intimate relationship with the Most high
That he calls her by name, that she is submitted and obedient to His will,
God never leaves His children bereft, he is always speaking.
he has spoken to me so many times concerning members of my family, i am
glad i don't play church, that i am not the senior partner in our relationship
But that He is. Glad His plans are always good, i don't know what i would do
without Him, He just works perfectly, i love the way He loves me (selfish as that sounds)
God's love is unending, i won't stop dreaming!
I am under His divine influence daily because i am born of God
and His divine protection/hedge is roundabout my loved ones daily in their offices, businesses
homes, anywhere they go, God is caring for them. He is my stand-by

If some idiot curses you and you are cursing them back, you are not prepared
to walk in the kingdom
After seeing it, you must walk in it by obeying God's word
LOVE is key, but love is not stupidity; neither is it humiliation.

That woman just pissed me off because her lack of operating spiritual gifts
cost her her life, she did not need to go to heaven early.

God and I are not are close as we used to be, the intimacy level is not as good as it used to be. I feel like He's there for me but i am living life not exactly on his plane.
So i decided to start a journal between God and me, where i would just write to Him about my day and my Christian growth and my life and just to know His mind for me. 

My pastor used to give this scripture a lord "Draw near to me and i will draw near to you". I think i even heard it a couple of times before i got saved.

Tip for the day: If you are reading scripture you want to drive into your spirit, speak in tongues while reading it, peace!

Feels like old times, my writing doesn't have to make sense and be all so proper all the time.


  1. Welcome back. It is not black and white the way you put it. Sometimes, God permits bad things to happen to good people even if they have the spirit of discernment.
    Only God knows why the stuff happened, but you cannot outrightly say that she wasn't spiritually sensitive.

  2. Interesting...
    Not in a bad way

  3. I feel like i have drifted from God too, maybe i should start a journal like you too.....

    Poor woman :(

  4. Welcome back
    Re: 'Drifting away' ...I have to say it happens from time to time. However, the very fact you have recognised this shows you are not far from him.

    BTW - I love the song on your blog.

  5. @ilola
    Yes i know, like stephen but it is difficult to believe that God lets bad things happen without warning His servants.
    I have had times where God showed me stuff i couldn't pray about, i simply sow a seed and still pray through.

    Thanks, where have you been? I have missed seeing you on blogger.

    I haven't started the journal yet but being conscious has made me start speaking with God again instead of listing wants.

    I have to learn to draw near to him connstantly, not far, was busy working with my might in His house instead of loving Him with all my heart and might shown as i pursue relationship with Him
    Yeah, these songs bless me every time and i am glad it blesses you too, it is holy ghost inspired and touches my heart.

  6. Nice to have you back, and your post talks to me too. It is well.


Say whats on your mind. Still loving cos i don't see myself ever becoming a hater or confirming to the voice of the crowd either.
What can i say? Tell me what you think!